Sam Smith dished on their hopes for the future in a new interview with Apple Music’s Zane Lowe, confessing to wanting children by the age of 35.
“I want kids. I want all of it. I want to have kids. I want to be with the kids and I want to watch them grow and be with them every day. I want to be mummy,” the 28-year-old singer said. “I’m definitely going to do that at some point, but I’ve still got more in me. I’ve still got ambition. I try and settle it down all the time and play it down, but I’m ambitious and I would still want to sing to people and do this job. It’s an amazing feeling.”
“I’m going to work my ass off until then [and] hopefully find a boyfriend — but they’re absolutely nowhere to be found anywhere in London,” Sam continued. “I’ve been searching all over the place. Honestly, I’ve been on the frontline now for a good three years and it’s exhausting.”
Meanwhile, Sam has admitted they don’t want to be a role model. Sam worries they have been put in a ‘dangerous position’ by being publicly non-binary and although they think it is ‘wonderful’ if they can help others understand or come to terms with who they are, they are very cautious of the responsibility because they know they’re not perfect.
“I think there is a lack of education and a lack of understanding,” Sam told Sunday Times Style magazine.
“No one ever talked about queer sex or queer love growing up and I have been put in dangerous positions.I feel that if my music or gender expression helps anyone of any age see themselves in me, or it helps them understand, that’s wonderful.
“The concept of being a role model is wonderful, but it is not something I am looking for. I make mistakes. I am flawed,” they added.
Sam pointed out that they don’t enjoy being famous because it is so ‘invasive’.
“I wouldn’t say that I love fame. Fame means I can get certain messages across, which is a wonderful thing … but it’s very invasive. I was 21 when fame happened and my whole world changed,” Sam continued. “I didn’t realize how much of a homebody I was and how much I loved my privacy. You can’t go back. I have gotten used to it and am aware of how lucky I am, but I have to be cautious.”
Sam has learned to cope with the intention by refusing to read anything about themselves in the media.
“I remember I got papped when I was 22. I have always looked at myself with affection no matter how big or small I am, but I saw the picture and I felt ashamed. So now I don’t look at pictures or read anything about me, good or bad.”